I haven’t written in here in a long time.
I don’t have much to say. I’m okay I guess. Single. Reading the past entries makes me so… sad and heartbroken, still. Mainly the reason why I was avoiding this blog. :(
I’ll have something better to say soon I’m sure.
I think this quote is perfect.
“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes. I’m out of control and at times hard to handle, but if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”
-Marilyn Monroe
So true.
So I decided to get out my 2005 & 2006 yearbooks from IDCI tonight and read what people said to me. It’s kind of sad to think that out of all these people, I talk to maybe two of them regularly, the others are either sometimes when we run into each other or have an awkward facebook conversation, or never.
These following quotes are from my 2005 yearbook, and the most memorable:
“Sarah! (SXE Wannabe!)
OMFGZ I LYKE LUV U! hehe I’m so awesome and so are you. DOUBLE BELT IS SEXY! lol. Omg. Our walks at lnch are so sweet. And spending the night at KTL’s house! OH and Randi feeding us alcohol. Obviously we have toooo much fun together. Shows are the best with you. And windmilling & 2 steppin, yo. haha Sarah loves the guiche! haha Anyways your hott and I want your barbies!
Love Love Love Clarissa (the HXC one)”
Things definitely haven’t changed with this girl. Love love love her, except we don’t go to shows anymore and sleepover at my ex’s house, obviously. Randi moved to Montreal and I’m sure she still thinks I’m hot and wants my babies. Oh & double belt is SO not sexy. EW?
“Sarah G.
The first time I saw you, I hit on you and creeped you out. Then I forgot about you for a while. Now we went to subway and I signed your year book.
Ben Nielsen”
I’ll never forget when he hit on me. I was actually TERRIFIED and didn’t know what to think. I wasn’t used to guys hitting on me (I was getting out of my ugly stage at this time, haha sad but true). I still remember the subway lunch perfectly as well, it was me, Niall, Ben and Alanah… we skipped class I believe.
“SARAH! You doll!
I have had an amazing year and I definitely owe some of it to you! I’ll always remember hickies, VAGINA POWER, the sextuplets and the geek within you! We must hang out this summer, or I will likewise cry. Weezer meetup, new years (haha George.). Have a great summer (with me!)
<3 Paterson Hodgson”
Hickies, embarrassing. I showed up at school with so many of them on my neck and EVERYONE knew within a half hour. I swear I covered myself up. haha Vagina Power… the first few weeks of school, I hardly talked to anyone due to my shyness and being the new girl… my lunch table crew were talking about like feminism or some shit, and I screamed “VAGINA POWER!” and it was some of the first words anyone had heard me speak. hahaha Weezer meetup, we won’t go there.
“Saraaaaaaaah!
It’s the Matt and Sarah show! It’s been a great year, full of many twists and turns and drunken Mikeness and stuff like that. We all learned some very important lessons… I think… Have a great summer!
Matty Moskal”
Where the hell did he go? He literally disappeared from the face of the earth. Him and I were such close friends then bam.
“Oh Little Sarah.
How I do love thee. Remember the Unicorns and how I dance, the really fun times we had and the time when we played with an airhose at Mac’s.
Luff Always,
Mike Donohue”
AWW I LOVE HIMMM! We still talk once in a while and he’s still my favourite person ever even though we haven’t seen each other in years. I swear there is nothing to do in Ingersoll, hence why we played with an… air hose…”
“HI SARAH :) :) :) (bahaha KTL)
So I’m extremely happy that you moved to IDCI this year. I probably wouldn’t be such a regular “SCENIE” at the embassy/mutual building if not for you. Our search for the Devilman and gangsta rapping are etched in memory. AWW SKEET SKEET GODDAMN. Double Belt is cool. So is the Embassy bathroom! Awkward myspace people are hilarious too. I love you wanksta gangsta who robs da bankstas
Less than three!
Alanah”
First friend at IDCI and the friend I miss the most. Honestly so many amazing memories. Love that we were known as the scene kids back in the day… bahaha
“Hey Sarah! I remember one time at Alanah’s house you grabbed my body after I played gay chicken and it was funny and I laughed because you never spoke to me before that day. And that is how we met. Have a good summer and keep the touching of strange mohawked punk boys down to a minimum.
Jesse Fleming”
I swear I accidentally grabbed him. hahaha
These following quotes are from my 2006 yearbook:
“<3 SARAH GOWING.
I always write incredibly cheesy things when I don’t know what to say. So I apologize in advance. This year has been brilliant. Our friendship bloomed and you made coming to school a treat just to see you! Even though you won’t be here next year, I am positive that we will be great friends and love each other just as much as now.
You put a smile on my face Sarah Gowing!
Love on yah <3 Julia
(PS I keep showing people your grad bio cuz I’m in it!)”
I miss her.
“Miss Sarah Gowing
There is too much to write. Lunch walks. Going to shows. Shopping. It was an amazing year. Projects together, hangouts with friends, etc. It sucks that you are going to be gone next year and leave me by myself. You are a great girl, and I am thankful for myspace for meeting you. Anyways lots of hangouts this summer!
Love always,
Clarissa ANSTEE!”
I remember this making me tear up because I wouldn’t be there the following year! Love love love her.
“Keep ur Chevy ridin’ low!
Kody Redman”
AHAHAHA, this always made me laugh. He sat next to me in Travel & Tourism class, and drove me insane!
“Sarah is pretty and is funny.
Tyler Wallis”
ahahaha love him.
“Hey hottie,
I guess I’m supposed to say some cliche things like um… good journey! Best wishes! and my phone number is 51953WILD1. Hell yes. I’ll shut up, I love you little gamer girl with your pretty blonde hair. Seriously, two crazy teachers per semester and I wouldn’t be able to last in the classes without you. We’re sweet together, and this time we won’t fight because we are too good looking to fight.
I love you sweets,
Jen Scott =)”
Still my best friend, and we haven’t fought since we became friends again. :) Just so you know, that is my old phone number from when I lived in Woodstock. hahaha
“Dear Sarah,
Thank you for putting my name in your bio, you are the coolest old bitch I know, have a sexy summer!
Love ya, Danno”
AHAHA AWW DAN THURTELLLLLLL
“Dear Sarah,
You are small. You also have blonde hair. I’ll probably see you in the summer and foods has been fun. Good luck on all your endeavors and don’t touch little boys.
Love, Niall Collins”
I like how Jen wrote “love” in. Miss this boy. Also, little boys? Dammit, I need to stop going for guys younger than me… haha.
Something I noticed was the amount of phone numbers I got in these yearbooks… I never called any of these numbers except like Clarissa’s. ahaha Half of the people that gave me their numbers, I hardly knew! I miss high school sometimes.
My grad biography kills me.
Sarah Gowing
Thanks for the best last year of high school IDCI! AR’s house, New Years, the many many shows, Warped Tour, being the girl that “apparently” never talks, OCC!, lunch table crew, teamlafours, 2-stepping in the hallway, creepy myspace people and the famous lunch walks. Keep cool my babies! CA, JH, JS, NC, HP, SM, DANTHURTELL, JB, JF, WF, MM, SH, DL, JW. “Catch the wind, see us spin, sail away, leave the day, way up high in the sky.” – Led Zeppelin
I can’t even name those initials besides Clarissa Anstee, Julia Hodgson, Jen Scott, Niall Collins, Heather Pembleton, Sabrina Mitchell, Dan Thurtell, Jenna Brooks, Warren Fritzgerald, Matt Millson, Sunny Howdick, Jen Wolan…. who are the others? WTF.
Okay, must finish project.
Edan is totally reading this. Hi Edan. :) <3
Poopies I'm bored.
Edan, come kidnap me. :)
I think I’m gonna start writing in this again. It may not be as often because of school (obviously) ahaha but I just feel like it would be nice to have a place to write and vent again. I don’t know who reads this anymore but don’t really care…
So I completed my first semester of school two weeks ago! I’m seriously proud of how well I did. 4.0 GPA :) I’ve never been more impressed with myself than ever. I didn’t think I’d do this well, I have really low confidence in myself when it comes to school since I didn’t do well at all in high school, like at all. My parents have never been more proud of me before and it’s just an amazing feeling. It finally feels good to know that I’m not getting compared to my brother anymore. Infact, they are bragging to my brother about how well I’m doing. :)
Love life… I met someone incredible. Absolutely incredible. I’ve never been more happy than I am with him. We aren’t an official couple or anything but we’ve been seeing each other for a good month and a half now, going on 2. We go to the same college, except he’s in the heating and cooling class. I had no desire to meet him at first because I was “Boy Free 2009!” because of all the heart break I went through last year. So finally Holly and Kevan pretty much convinced me to meet this guy, and he ended up being so much better looking than I thought and ended up being super charming. We started off rocky because of a night I went to his place, he was completely drunk and didn’t speak to me but made it up to me completely. :) We were hanging out pretty much 2-3 times a week and I’ve slowly truly falling for the guy. I only wanted a fling with him but… it’s hard to resist. We are two complete opposites, he’s a farm boy and I’m a city girl.
Sad part about this, he’s leaving for the summer to go out west. :( I hate the idea of this but it’s something he’s wanted to do for a long time. I’m going to miss him so incredibly much and it’s just going to be a long lonely summer without him. We have our last hangout together tomorrow and it’s going to be so hard… bleh.
I don’t really have much else to say. I went on a random road trip to Maryland with Jessica and uh yeah him. It was fun minus something that happened. I’m still upset about it and upset about other things that deal with him basically. I honestly don’t care if he reads this. Prick.
OH I have brown hair now as well. Yay change.
